Sab Dukhi hai

This one is going to be very vague, absolute bullshit so consider not reading it unless you are too inquisitive about what this piece of shit is. So I decided my 2025 resolution to develop no kind of crush or any kind of feelings for anyone and to live exactly like how I lived during my 11-12th but then you know how after a successful day of completing all your targets and everything you wish to talk to someone but you don't have that "one" specific someone in your life and it's not like you can't tell your friends or sibling but after a point you just crave for that one in your life, I have been facing that crisis for some time. I was talking to a friend the other day and I realised probably we are at a point where we need someone on a daily basis not all the time but yes for sometime and probably we are trying to fill that void with social media or songs or movies but this isn't filling the void it's just eating us up from inside. Now it's not like that I feel this void all through the day, but yes those 10 mins before going to sleep ( I know you feel that too if you don't have that constant someone, so don't judge me for writing it out loud). I know the solution, go explore, tone down that tough exterior, talk to people who show interest. Okay bye, I have ranted enough. Thanks for reading it. I hope you don't relate to this one bcz it's really sad. 

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