Growth

You can't feel how far you have come until you look back once in a while. You can't for sure quantify growth but you can really see the difference. October really made me see into my personal growth this month. The month started with going to Delhi all by myself to see places which I had gone to in my childhood. Re-visiting all the places to which lot of good memories were associated with. Safdarjung tomb, Humayun's Tomb, Sundar Nursery all great places bound with historical references that my father once used to teach me. Going all the way in public transports that too in Delhi felt a little scary until and unless it was done especially with my tendency to doze off at places. But yep I managed to keep myself awake and cautious and walk and see and go and meet and everyhing I had thought about doing. Then comes the Baroda part. The homecoming started on a sad note with my mother and brother in the hospital and the so long awaited trip getting cancelled but then it was all god's plan. The stay was for a long time, longer than what I could have expected but definitely it could have been extended but then your college giving you false expectations on events. Now the coming back part. I took the flight from Baroda, which was via Bombay. Reached Kolkata at 1am. Stayed at the airport till 5am and then took a taxi from there. Now next time I have to go somewhere I would be definitely less worried and more confident in every move I make. When life gives you lemons make a lemonade, don't expect that someway you can sugarcoat it. Now with every birthday I celebrate I just find myself more responsible and more concerned and more independent. The fact that this time I couldnt sleep during all that waiting in the airport made me realise how good it is to have adults carry you everywhere. Adulthood is a piece of reality that sucks along with all the fun it brings. Although I crave to be a child but the inner me finds a lot of solace in doing stuff I know a lot of people in my age group aren't doing. Growing up is sad and tough but it brings you close to your destiny and you can't be close to it if you don't walk in that path. Now going home is many months and miles away and I can't stop looking forward to it because I know despite all the growth a part of me still wants to doze off at places where I know someone is going to take care of me.