Faith (Part-1)

Faith in love. Having faith in something inspite of innumerable disappointments is the biggest example of hope. I think I might be restoring my faith again. Started watching a kdrama today. Twenty five twenty one. Readers this would be a pleasant journey. I know this series is heartbreaking but I will still watch it. Rather I am on the second episode right now and it's all butterflies. Such a long time it has been since I felt those. The second episode ended. It was refreshing. You know how we feel happy seeing the characters get happy, like really smiling, just the way we do when our friends mention about our crushes in front of us, giggling and hoping they would stop but not so soon. Really sureal it does feel. So now I am on the fourth episode and there's a beautiful line. Make comedy out of your tragedy. Makes it easy to deal. Just like how I alliterated my pathology dismal performance as " pathetic patho". Makes it bearable. Doesn't reduce the guilt although. I am loving it so far. I just wish it to continue "liek" this. Well it didn't continue like this. Situations changed, things happened and life worsened for the boy but the love is still there. They are still rooting for each other. Don't we all just someone who would root for us against all odds, someone who would help us get where we want to just by being present. Okay so now the two main characters meet after months. And the girl tried having a bf in between just to experience a break up." If you are not actually in love, breakup isn't sad" so true. You can experience longing only if it's truly love. You can really find yourself not finding interest in anyone around you. You might want to distract yourself in ways but your thought process comes back to you. Love and its side effects. Another transition, now the girl is getting jealous because the guy had many girlfriends and she didn't have a single boyfriend. How typical. Why do I see a lot of myself in her. I am on the ninth episode now. And you know I learnt something. You can't explain love. Love isn't about timing. Love isn't about chemistry. Love is a choice that we make despite what and where timing and chemistry takes us. When you can't explain something rationally, it's always love. Okay so yeah I am posting this now. This is the most inconclusive thing I have ever written. Wait for the second part. 

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