The imperfections

I believe in zodiac signs but that doesn't mean I make an interpretation about people based on theirs. I believe in them because they give me hope and also because I have been characterised quite wholly by mine. Now I haven't tried to become whatever it mentioned just for the sake of fitting in but I have seen that I naturally fitted into many and I believe many others even found the same thing happen to them. You might wonder " why all this and that too all of a sudden ". Well I recently read one and it stated -

Now as I said I fit into most of these and in this one I fit in the most accurately. I appear as a cold hearted person and I know this doesn't make a good impression about me but I can't afford being not practical in my life. I have seen things I wish I never saw, I have felt things I wish I never felt. I can't be casual with a person I know whether it's friendship or relationship. Remember Katie Morosky from ' The way we were', I am like her. I have strong opinions which are not for the sake of showing them to society. I refuse to accept what I don't believe in and often that's the reason I end up losing friends. She loved Hubell and more than that she made every effort to make it last but differences in political views ruined their life. Can't people just accept a clash of opinion? Does love mean accepting everything blindly. Accepting each other imperfections is it so difficult?  I sometimes believe that this headstrong nature of mine would lead me to someplace similar like theirs.

Remember Eleanor Dashwood from ' Sense and  Sensibility' . She might not  be most sensitive women I have met but she is definitely the one who can hide her feelings the best. I have been even hiding mine, from the people closest to me. Small things matter so much in my life that I forget to pay attention to the big things. I have realised that people remember the small defects in the big successes and that's why I work the best way I can to make it perfect and in the process I become harsh and rude to people and I can't remove these blunders from my life. Those words haunt me later and for a long time and it takes away my sleep sometime. Believe me all that I said was purely unintentional and I didn't want to hurt anyone but I can't undo it.  Matters can be only resolved if we forgive and forget and I haven't been forgiven by many.


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