The better place

Everything in this world has been pre awarded, pre witnessed, pre expressed and pre applauded. But still the need to prove ourselves never stops. We still feel obligated to make efforts to make our lives better and even I am trying to do it. But  the better place  that we imagine and work for at this  point will it  still be the same once we are close to getting it. Does the enthusiasm really last for such a span of time? ( I will know once I reach but what about the time between the present and the better place. The search is never ending ) 

I read an interesting theory about enjoying a cup of tea. It said " You must be completely awake in the present to enjoy the tea. Only in awareness of the present can your hands feel the pleasant warmth of the cup. Only in the present can you savour the aroma , taste the sweetness and appreciate the delicacy. If you are ruminating about the past or worrying about the future , you will completely miss the experience of enjoying the cup of tea. You will look down at the cup and the tea will be gone" and most of the days it happened to me until I read this. After this I thought about working for the future and living in the present but I simply couldn't . Maybe the present isn't satisfying enough so escapism was the last option. Hiding myself behind books , studies and movies so as to limit my thoughts worked till some point but then how long can I trap them in my very own built cage. I have the key and now it's all coming out and it's for the better only. I have found my better place for the time being. 

You will find a somewhat confused person in me while you read this but these thoughts come to me even though I don't  search for them in books and places. I am philosophically troubled by reality and I am trying to cope up with everything through fiction but still the bigger better place would be found soon and by then I would be an adult who is just a scarred kid inside who just made it through the teenage limbo. 
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